So all my company over the last one and a half months has come and gone. Mother came from March 16th until the 30th and then Eileen and Cara came from April 3rd until the 30th. I can’t believe it all went by so fast. I must admit I am extremely grateful for my mother coming first because I admit I was a little rusty on my people skills from being a loner for so long. I probably was not the greatest hostess for her but I love her so much and am sorry for any time I was anything less then pleasant. Which was often, so please forgive me and sorry Mummy; as for Cara and Eileen I think they enjoyed their time mostly with me I mean I have my “quirks” for lack of a better word and other then trying to get them to not eat meat in my apartment and turn off the lights and gas I think it was not to annoying for them. Now they are gone.
I must admit I think I am going to have to get use to that alone thing again. It won’t be as bad as the first time because well I should be use to it, but I can totally feel the lack of like “magic” around. It’s just like me and I realize what a head case I possibly turned into. I have decided that I can’t drink while I’m alone, I just get pissed drunk and that’s not good for multiple reasons. I will drink if friends are around me the entire time. Oh and yes I have set a date to come home. Which seems so final…I have to leave Osaka, Japan (possibly forever) on July 31st.
What kind of sucks about the time I have to leave is, I was under the impression that I could stay at least a week and some after school ends which is on July 29th (the last test). So when I asked what the absolute latest time I had to leave was, they told me July 30th. Which kind of pisses me off since Blake (last year’s student) was allowed to stay for an extra week and a half. It might be for other reasons then a degree of acceptance for the exchange student…but I don’t know but I have made myself feel like they are slightly prejudice towards me. Tattoos and all and lack of Japanese friends and heavy school involvement, what can I say. I’m a longer at heart.
Oh and how my heart ached when my Mother left, it too ached when my friends left but…my heart broke. Ha my eyes are watering. Really though it was a broken heart letting go of my Mother and having her leave. Okay I have to stop talking about this is like breaking my heart all over again. I miss my Dad too I had this dream I came home. He was not excited for me because a different family member was there and I was so devastated and upset that the feelings shock my mind to insofar that I woke up on the verge of bawling but quickly regained composure as it was only a horrible dream.
I want to try and keep better track of my dreams as they are very vivid but not to the extent I know they can get when I am constantly putting them down on paper. I have a new art class every Friday, which I will go to today and that is good it nice to get to be a touch creative again. The university will take more photos of me today. I think its because the first ones they took were “unusable” as my tattoo was showing. They did ask me to dress in bright summer clothing though and all my bright summer clothing has short sleeves. I was also told that I need to cover up my head with a hat or a bandana to hide my tattoo and keep all of them hidden for that much. So I’m a touch unsure what I will wear that is summery. Oh well. I should cut this off now and get ready for class. I will keep this updated again I promise…thanks Kalen Ravelli for reminding me I had one!
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