Drive me far...away...just...far away...I dont care where just far

I remember being grounded one summer a couple years ago, well nearly 5 now and thinking that the time was going by so slowly. I was depressed and could not wait until I was ungrounded. I kind of having that feeling now I suppose but it’s a touch different because I can go out and do things. I suppose it’s the lack of having a friend around. My boyfriend of the time had moved away for the summer, and I was not aloud out of the house. I could talk to my friends over the internet but other then that I was not aloud to see them or leave the house. Living in Japan is similar. My choice but similar. I need to get out and go visit some place I have no been to yet, maybe I can ask someone to take me somewhere. I would go wondering off on my own but that is extremely intimidating when alone in an extremely foreign country. I wish I was more adventurous and did not care about getting lost. I mean really I don’t care but ever since that one time I accidentally got lost here and got in trouble for it even though it was an accident I really don’t want to brave all of the train systems and subway systems. I’m more so a hermit in Japan then I was in gr.12. I have slowly become to realize that friendship systems in Japan are completely different from the ones I have in Canada. Friends don’t spend huge amounts of time with each other just hanging out. Friends get together in the city and pay for entertainment, I have not heard of friends coming over just to hang out and watch a movie, or spending mass amounts of their free time with their friends like my group of friends or previous friendships I have had with people. Same goes with boyfriends, they tend just to meet each other in the City and see each other once a week if they are lucky (seriously my tutor sees her boyfriend like once every month and a half because they live so far apart and are so busy). No one just hangs out with each other. Nobody cuddles. I have not seen anyone cuddling, let alone media where people are embracing each other. I have seen some handshaking, no hugging. It’s actually kind of sad. It’s making me kind of sad. I am trying to recycle and have a hug pile in my room right now and I don’t know what to do with it because I don’t know where to bring it to recycle. I had been putting some of it with the bottles at the shopping mart where you can drop off a few types of recyclables but a lady grabbed the ones I put in and threw them into the garbage because I don’t know they don’t recycle them but they have the sign on them. Ugh I wanted to do something but I did nothing. Where do you recycle them, I can find a place to recycle hard plastics, or like semi hard plastics via cookie containers type things. Also I don’t know where to recycle all my soft plastics like bags and wrappings. It’s really depressing since Japan is supposed to be one of the best recyclers. People think I am collecting garbage because they don’t know it’s recyclable. I guess I will just try and not by anything in bags. Or pre-packaged…but that’s almost impossible. Hum…I will find a way. I wish I had a friend here, but I have decided I probably wont make one I don’t think I will get very good at Japanese. Yuki gave me a bike that they “fixed up” I think that meant they fixed the tire or something because the breaks basically don’t work. Like they work 30 % out of 100 I would say. As well I don’t have a helmet and the Japanese are all ready crazy enough drivers that it’s like a death trap. I must admit I feel safer on a mountain bike because I would really second guess if I could take the bike off the curb without it like busting. Uhhh crappy bikes. I suppose I can use it to view the area quicker, but there is always the whole death trap thing about it. I have not even noticed any helmet shops or anything like that anywhere. I don’t even know if my head would fit into a Japanese helmet because as someone pointed out to me the other day compared to her head (the Japanese) their heads are not like round-ish at the back they are more like flat and just go straight into their neck where our(if you have european/african/native decents) heads have a concave part from our neck to the back of our head switching back to convex. Yea so whatever, I should get some of my homework done…it just one sheet but it is due tomorrow. I love you guys. I’m so excited for my visitors. Love you all